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What If God Were a Wound by Eric LaRocca: Short Story Review by Sterp

9/1/2022

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I am writing this seconds after finishing the short story If God Were a Wound by Eric LaRocca, recently published in the horror anthology Shattered and Splintered.

There aren’t many short story first liners that grab you by the face demanding your attention. They’re few and far between. Sometimes, I feel terrible when I attempt to read a short story and just can’t get past the first few lines because if that’s the case, I am throwing in the towel and moving on.
If God Were a Wound didn’t just grab my face, it punched me in the gut and forced me to read on with pleasure. 


And the first line is, “If God were a wound, I think more people might be inclined to believe in Him.”

Whether or not you believe in God is besides the point. This short story doesn’t just have something to say, it needs the world to hear it and makes the world want to hear it. As a writer myself, the crafting of a short story is as difficult to formulate as a full blown novel. I was mesmerized by LaRocca’s poetic prose, story arc (yes, there are arcs in shorts,) twists, build up, and ultimately an end that makes the reader ponder afterward for quite some time. I could feel LaRocca’s vulnerability and when a writer accomplishes that, well I’d say they have accomplished as a writer. 
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This story is the type that should be read in classrooms, analyzed and discussed. So, dear reader, I will leave you with this excerpt from If God Were a Wound:

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“Bad news?” he asks.

I don’t know how to answer. It’s not necessarily bad news. At least, not in the way most people might consider bad news, or take it for that matter. Instead, it seems more appropriate to classify it as “strange news.”
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Believe me, you’ll want to find out what this “strange news” is, so help me God. 
  • Be sure to check out the horror anthology Shattered and Splintered which features tons of other amazing authors. 
  • Check out Eric LaRocca’s website and Twitter.
  • Eric LaRocca (he/they) is the author of several works of horror and dark fiction including the viral sensation Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke. They are Bram Stoker Award®-nominated and winner of the Splatterpunk Award.
-Sterp

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The Final Guys Horror Show: 70s/80s Horror Cinema, the Vile and Depressing, & More!

8/31/2022

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Do you love 1970s and 80s horror cinema? Or maybe you enjoy soft porn horror films (yes, it’s totally a thing!) Hear me out for a minute, as a horror fanatic myself, I was shocked that I had never heard of the Final Guys YouTube channel, a podcast dedicated to all things horror (reviewing horror cinema, games, books, etc.) But here’s the thing, this isn’t just any podcast, these guys and gals are our fellow indie horror authors! Your amazing hosts are Hunter Shea, Jack Campisi, and Jason Brant with guests like Chad Lutzke, Laurel Hightower-Wells, and more! If you’re hearing the faint calling of crickets right now, do yourself a favor and go read some of these authors’ books. ASAP. Here’s the good news, Final Guys is LIVE on YT every Tuesday at 8pm ET. 

I’m going to do you a favor and highlight some of the best moments from last night’s Final Guys YT Live, which was my first, popping my cherry with horror soft porn (we’ll get to that in a bit.) Be prepared for drinking games, horror reviews, they got jokes, and amazing attendee chat! I’m going to break out of this paragraph format and dive into a list of highlights. Enjoy!

Best Moments from The Innocents Review - Final Guys Horror Show #272
Watch on-demand here. 
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  • Apparently Tubi is the shizznittle when it comes to horror cinema in the realms of experimental and 70s/80s horror.
  • There was talk about Kevin Smith’s 2014 film Tusk, you’ll love it or hate it but it’s definitely so strange and disturbing everyone should give it a go.
  • A new Friday the 13th is coming in 2023!!! It’s been 13 years (coincidence?) Chad Lutzke wishes for a found footage Jason film while Jason Brant hopes for a return to Camp Crystal Lake in winter because blood + snow = horrortasticness baby! 
  • The meat of this podcast is horror cinema reviews from the 70s and 80s, new movies and even video games! Can I get a HELL YEAH! Below are links to all the films that were reviewed. 
    • Nightwish “What I call tits and zits movies of all time,” - Hunter Shea 
    • Samaritan “All the actors have at least one moment where they are WWE to the top,” -Jason Brant
    • Evils of the Night *SOFT PORN HORROR ALERT* “This thing is kind of disjointed. It’s just sex scene after sex scene,” -Chad Lutzke
    • Rise: Blood Hunter “Eye candy wise, Lucy Liu never looked better. A lot of sexy vampire stuff in this,” -Jack Campisi
    • Heavy Metal “I’d go to Heavy Metal to just watch pretty naked ladies and ridiculous sci-fi animations,” -Hunter
    • A Reflection of Fear “Really, kind of disturbing, unpredictable,” - Chad (I watched this last night, and it was epic!)
    • Halloween with the New Addams Family “The thing is a train wreck but it’s also fun to watch if you are a fan of the show,” -Jack
    • Images “You start to wonder if she’s some kind of schizophrenia,” -Chad

Check out all the movie posters below because you know we all judge a movie by its cover! 

​Main Feature Film Review: The Innocents
  • “It was dark and depressing and gross and vile and very well done,” -Jason
  • “It went places I didn’t think it would go and all four of those kids should win acting awards,” -Hunter
  • “I thought I was watching real life,” -Jack
  • “I absolutely loved this movie with everything I have, big time,” -Chad

Well, I hope I’ve sold you on the Final Guys Horror Show! These dudes are the real deal. You can find links below to connect and follow them. I hope to see you on Tuesdays 8pm ET in the chat! 
  • Final Guys on Instagram
  • Final Guy YT Channel 
  • Follow on Twitter

-Sterp
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The Innocents
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Knock Knock. Who's There?

8/24/2022

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I slept well last night and I don’t know why. I trace back what my day looked like so I can replicate it again just to get some good sleep. The one thing that stood out was writing. I finally started writing again. I guess when I don’t write, memories and untrue narratives crowd my mind until there’s no more space in there. Then I can’t sleep. Knock knock. Who’s there? I don’t know, but get them out. 
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I started writing my third book yesterday, what I’m calling an autobiographical horror. I’d like to think of it as Stephen King meets Hunter S. Thompson with Sylvia Plath overtones, minus the latter two’s terrible demise.

I slept well last night and I don’t know why but I hope it’s from writing. Painting helps me but not in the same way that writing does. There is no other way to expose thoughts, to slap them around a little and put them in their place. There’s no other way to remove cancerous memories and untrue narratives from your brain except to trap them onto paper for all to read. They almost lose enough of their power.
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I fell asleep with ease last night and at 5:30 this morning my eyes opened in a flash. I was wide awake with no questions asked so I got up and started my day with writing. Since I met the day with writing, I hope I sleep well tonight too. 

Until we meet again dear reader,


Sterp

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Sterp's Sunday Secrets: The "D" Word and a Secret Window

8/21/2022

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I have secrets like each of you. But do you share your secrets? 

I have been getting quite depressed lately. Yes, the “D” word, the one we are not supposed to talk about. The one that our world shuns even though many of our loved ones are lying in its puddle day after day. Not quite drowning, just lying there in angst.

I wrote a short story today about it all and submitted it to a publication, probably only to get rejected but that’s another story for another day.

This morning I sat out on my porch and read a book I got from the library, Secret Window: Essays and Fiction on the Craft of Writing by Stephen King. It’s inspiring to say the least. I want to go to his home in Maine and stare between the bars of his steel black fence. I want to haunt him the way his stories haunt me. Is that creepy?

The really great news is I have been creating more than all the years added together. Whatever that means. I also received my first portrait commission ever. An achievement in the art world similar to getting an interview for a job. It makes me happy and that’s really all I could ask for.

Let’s see, what else? I am writing again after burn out. I often feel burn out. I don’t know if it’s an artist thing, a creator thing, but I get into fits of creativity and it just pours out of him uncontrollably then it’s like I’ve been hit by a truck and I am laid out for days, sometimes weeks, and even months. It’s as if everything was sucked out of me and the only way to recharge is to sleep. 

I cycle. I write, paint, read, all obsessively until I break. I repair and continue. I do this all while working a day job, being a mom, a wife and trying to live healthily. Everyone and no one is doing the same thing. Or doing nothing. 

Sometimes I get headaches that last days. 
Sometimes I feel on top of the world. 

I want to keep these short for you, in the midst of your busy life. I need to go work on this commission piece. I will share progress photos along the way. Happy Sunday (to you and your Sunday secrets...)

By the way, tell me one secret.


-Sterp

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Scream 5: One of the Best in the Series & Here's Why

1/23/2022

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Warning: This blog has spoilers throughout and is meant for an audience who has either seen Scream 5 or does not mind spoilers. 

As you’re reading this, what if there was a masked killer on the loose, sneaking around your neighborhood, killing, peering through your window, and watching you as you sit in the single place that provides you the most comfort and protection. 

Timing is inevitable in a slasher world where the victims have zero control of when and where the killer will strike next. To honor this, I am going to save you a lengthy memoir of my life story and how Scream has impacted my life, blah blah blah, before the masked killer calls you or knocks at your door. 

Scream 5, one of the best in the series and my second favorite, my first favorite being Scream 1. 

Why?
  1. Strong female protagonists kicking ass and stealing the show: Not only did Neve Campbell and Courtney Cox return, the main female lead is Melissa Barrera, a Mexican actress born in Monterrey, Mexico (a big hell yes to that!) Barrera’s character Sam is the daughter of Billy Loomis, one of the killers in the first Scream. This absolutely complicates Sam’s character and her development but this doesn’t stop her from making her own decisions which moves the story along. One of my favorite scenes is at the end when they return to the original house of Billy Loomis and Stu Macher. The shot is beautiful: Sam, Sydney and Gale are standing shoulder to shoulder in the house and you just know they are the reason this shit is going to stop and come to end tonight. 
  2. Deputy Dwight ‘Dewey’ Riley dies: This was a tough pill to swallow and I will admit I was in absolute shock. After thinking about it, this had to happen to make this film successful. In Scream 1, one of the most adored characters dies and that is Randy. That sucked too but it made the viewers feel something. It made viewers come back to watch the other films. The death of Dewey is what heightens the viewer’s investment and makes us want our female protagonists to not just succeed, but to epically triumph. We want to see the grand finale and it better be grand…and it was! 
  3. Billy Loomis returns in ghost form: I really liked this and thought it worked well. It showed the emotional battle that Sam is dealing with as she accepts the fact that she is the daughter of one of the most infamous killers of Woodsboro. I mention the grand finale being exactly what I wanted, hopefully it’s what everyone wanted, and that’s because of Billy Loomis. He convinces his daughter to finish the job of killing her boyfriend, who is revealed to be one of the killers. In all the slasher films I have ever seen, I have never seen any victim at the end of the film kill and stab the murderer the way that Sam does at the end of Scream 5. It’s ironic, it’s dichotomia at it’s finest. Sam is the opposite of Billy, but at this moment she is not. She stabs the killer the way a killer would kill their victim. It borders on the animalistic nature of the Manson killings. It was awesome to watch and to redeem Deputy Dewey, kind of. 
  4. Billy Loomis and Stu Macher manifest in the two young killers: First, the female killer Amber Freeman, played by Mikey Madison in this movie, looks like and behaves like Sadie Atkins, one of the core followers and members of the Manson Family. This is not a complete coincidence because Madison plays Sadie Atkins in Quentin Tarantino’s film Once Upon a Time in Hollywood. She used this to her advantage in Scream 5, and it worked well. It was believable and both killers in Scream 5 brought characteristics from Billy Loomis and Stu Macher’s personalities into their roles. This also worked great and didn’t seem forced at all but was obvious enough that it created nostalgia, weaving into the setting of the original house. 

I loved Scream 5. I think it did everything right, it represented under-represented groups without being forced or disingenuous. It kicked ass and for us die hard fans, it perfectly connected to the first Scream.

“Hello Sydney, it’s an honor.” And an honor it was indeed. 

Thanks for reading, 
Sterp 
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Seven Hours Straight

1/11/2022

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I edited my second book the other night for seven hours straight. In the end, I was nauseous and at that point only sleep would help. 

No one said writing books would be easy. 

I guess this is part of it. The writer takes on the suffering, hardships, and victories of their characters. It’s emotionally and physically exhausting, but for a writer, it’s an absolute necessity to live. Like breathing. 

The irony here: for many of us, writing can be therapeutic, but as we shed our skin of our own experiences we take on the new ones of our characters, all imagined by us from the beginning. 

It’s like being cleansed but using the exact thing we want to be cleansed of to cleanse ourselves. 

I felt nauseous the other night. I wrote about death, dark corners that exist in evil minds, sorrow and yet I never felt more proud and motivated after those seven hours. I feel my craft pumping through my veins and getting stronger every minute, every hour that I spend with it.

Like any art, like any craft, it stretches at your heart. It can drive you insane.

But who wants to live any other way?  

So there I lay ready to sleep, queasy, with a smile on my face.
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-Sterp
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Lipstick Red Neon

1/7/2022

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Title: Lipstick Red Neon

Red, red neon
Those dark tunnel hallways
Those psychedelic dreamscapes
Breathing breath takers
Give me goosebumps as I sweat
Walk by whispers wisp past my hair

Red, red neon
Barely lit street corners
Those inside pockets pass
Those worlds of rhythm dance out of car windows
Dirty street corners that rot and laugh
But there I stand
I stand 
I stand

Red, red neon
A forever night that will not see sunlight 
That moonlit sky speaks in another tongue
Those lights are different inside the dark
Lipstick cheeks behind windows
This world of one and only nights


Written by Stephanie Evelyn aka Sterp
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Grey Winter Deadly

11/27/2020

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Grey Winter Deadly
A Poem by Stephanie Evelyn



Pigments of the morning light
Make window panes squint at dawn.
Naked branches, frost shiver bite
Stiff grass buried under a tombstone lawn.

In this world, am I the only one awake?
Is everyone else in a sleep so deep?
My toes turn to ice as I search too late
My eyes are open, but maybe it's me who's asleep.

Cupped hands to lips that cry of cold,
Dew drops glisten off dying leaves.
Stories of so many, a chance never told,
A world left only of haunted trees.

I call out for someone, something but, 
The only answer I get is my voice as cold.
My words drift out as fog, vanish when touched,
Inside hearts, so many stories go untold.

I called for it many,
But never a sound.
Grey winter deadly,
My calls were not found.

It was one windy day when a message arrived,
The wind whistled it through the trees.
It said, “The world has forgotten you but no need to cry.
Your stories of so many can now become free.”


Thanks for reading.
Sterp 


Check out my other poems below. 


forever day
Whispers in the River
cuckoo bird blue
Graveyard Dance
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Women Thought Leaders in Horror: Erin Al-Mehairi

10/28/2020

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There is only 3 more days left until Halloween and my question to you is, what is your biggest fear and are you brave enough to tell?

The next author in my Women Thought Leaders in Horror line up is Erin Al-Mehairi. She is a writer, editor, and PR Professional with degrees in English, Journalism, and History. Though she’s been writing for decades, Breathe. Breathe., published by Unnerving, was her debut collection of dark poetry and short stories and was an Amazon #2 best-selling paid title in women’s poetry, behind NYT best-seller Rupi Kaur, and has hovered in top five in horror short stories several times since its publication. Her work has been called raw, honest, evocative, and beautiful.

Buckle up because you won't get anything as raw as this. And Happy Halloween...


Q: Why horror? What fascinates you about horror and enticed you to write in the genre?
 
A: I was never allowed to read, watch, or enjoy horror as a kid growing up, but I did grow up in the dark, spooky woods and I did enjoy fairy tales. I was completely scared of the dark, and had a lot of nightmares, but I also was very curious about the thing that made me scared. The only thing I was allowed was anything with cute witches and black cats (like books or costumes for Halloween or my actual real black kitty).
 
I suppose I secretly began to like horror in the written form when introduced to Edgar Allan Poe and Shirley Jackson through school assignments. “The Lottery” is one of my first and favorite dark horror stories. I learned through both of them, as well as many other great writers in other genres, just how awful humanity can be. That to me IS horror and why I believe horror crosses into so many other genres and people don’t even realize it.
 
Since I couldn’t read it at home, but was an avid reader, I read historical and fantasy books. I especially liked Sue Harrison’s Mother Earth Father Sky and Jane Auel’s Clan of the Cave Bear. I enjoyed books like Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee by Dee Brown. I enjoy, and still do, Kathleen O’Neal and W. Michael Gear’s books. If you think about it, there are many horrifying things in these books that happened in prehistoric times! Humans are not kind to each other, especially when they fear others different from them. I was allowed to read Stephen King if it was fantasy or seemingly non-horror, so I read The Eyes of the Dragon (one of my favorite books to this day), Gunslinger, and Dead Zone. I read the Flowers in the Attic by V.C. Andrews and the rest of the books in that series. Can we say domestic horror much? Certainly! And that book had a huge influence on my own writing.
 
I am fascinated by the psychology, the psyche, the way humanity operates and why. I like horror because it’s exploring this. I like the deep emotional pull of it. I began writing it, in a way, when I was in my teens and I wrote poetry to help me deal with loss and death. I was horrified by these two things and I had no idea what to do with my thoughts. So, I wrote poems. I had already been writing poems to express my emotion for nature and life in general.
 
Eventually in college besides journalism I majored in history and English. History is brutal and here I was faced again with it. The Holocaust is a real-life horror story. Again, I was compelled to learn not only why it happened but to see how people processed what was happening to them. I became fixated on Anne Frank and she became a writerly inspiration to me as well. In the English realm, I was entranced by F. Scott Fitzgerald and his presentation of the class structure. I began to see the horror in this and how it extended to all sorts of plots in horror. Many people didn’t think or understand why the film “Parasite” was considered horror. But it’s for this reason. It’s horrifying what the class dynamics ended up causing.
 
I also began to read more gothic literature and poetry in Hawthorne, Dickinson, as well as works by Joyce Carol Oates. Oates is still one of my favorite short fiction writers. Today, I don’t only see the real life historical and current horrors, but I look at things (from the simple to the complex) and see also what it might be supernaturally. Can a story come from this? Does that tree come alive? Is there a ghost in the corner? Does that object appear in a story about a woman who…? I’ve learned to look BEYOND and use my imagination. I enjoy that so much, the creation, and I think that’s why I will continue to always write horror in some form.
 
I love horror because it covers such a wide gamut, but it’s always there in some way even if we don’t see it right before our eyes. I enjoy quite a few sub-genres in horror, but I also think horror is a genre we can find more than others crosses into other realms easily. That makes it exciting and never dull.
 
I also enjoy writing horror for its great healing factor – I can put words on the page to analyze, dissect, comprehend, and grow. When I wrote my collection Breathe. Breathe., or some of the other short stories I’ve published in anthologies, I’ve been able to use words to share my pain and wounds. Horror is emotion in its truest form and I like that it’s real and raw. I also enjoy the ability to enact revenge without going to jail! Ha!
 
 
Q: What is your favorite era of horror and why?
 
A: I know I like gothic, so I’d say literature of the 1800s, whether written then or now. I really enjoy witch stories too – is that an era, or all the eras? Ha! I enjoy the cult phenomena the 80s brought us and its resurgence. And I enjoy the folk horror trend of now.
 
Q: What are some of your favorite horror films? 
 
A: I like certain types of horror films some of the ones I enjoyed the most would be “The VVitch,” “Gretel and Hansel,” “The Invisible Man,” “Hush,” “The Invitation,” “Bird Box,” “The Others,” “The Village,” “Get Out,” “Doctor Sleep.”
 
Q: What do you think the genre of horror brings to the world in terms of values, beliefs, impact?
 
A: As I mentioned briefly above, I think it wraps us up in all the social issues of the day. It takes on, and has always taken on, issues that we are too scared to face in our every day lives. It tackles mental illness, abuse, addiction, vanity, narcissism, abandonment, religion, and any type of fear anyone might have. This either draws people to the genre or it makes them run from it. It isn’t preachy, unless it’s an old fairy tale that might be teaching a lesson, but it’s more giving us a glimpse into psyche. It’s a view into the world so it can teach us, abhor us, embrace us, repel us, scare us. It can change us, mold us, or heal us so its greatest impact lies in that. It addresses the darkest fears, the most deviant minds, the blackness that humanity can be, but it often times also shows the hope.
 
Q: How do you think your writing of horror reflects you as a person or your life overall?
 
A: A lot of my writing comes from dealing with emotions and fears over situations. It’s very personal and passionate. It often reflects what has happened to me or other survivors and how we do (or don’t) come out the other side. In other of my works, it reflects my love of mystery and thrills, of gothic and ancient cultures, of an inquisitive mind. It shows I’m curious and I’m deep. An explorer of the mind, Earth, culture, and history. That I’ve had pain and wounds from the treatment of others. That sometimes there is hope and sometimes there is revenge using the page, but that I’m a fighter. For myself and for humanity as a whole.
 
Q: What do you think lies ahead for the genre?
 
A: As a whole horror is doing well during these stressful times. There is more mainstream horror than I’ve ever seen being published by traditional publishers, more films, more streaming shows, and a resurgence and love of a genre that they either used to love or never knew they loved before. As well there are more indie publishers and authors, and more wonderful writers self-publishing. I think that there are many stories to tell in horror and our world today, and its upheaval, is giving more people the time and/or courage to tell theirs. As long as publishing holds on and people buy books, I think that horror will continue to sell well and appeal to upcoming generations. Horror can give people an adrenaline rush, stories that take our mind off worries, and hope.
 
Q: Like many things, women are underrepresented in the horror genre. Why do think this is and why is it critical to have women more represented in horror?
 
A: I don’t think women are too highly underrepresented in horror overall anymore. Possibly still in anthologies given percentage of men who write short stories and submission numbers, but overall, women horror writers and their support has increased so much even in the ten years since I entered the genre. Until less than five years ago there were only a few women that everyone named, either old or current, when asked for a list. The same ones published. There wasn’t a huge sect of women in horror and there wasn’t many of them who would support or connect with others.
 
Now there is a whole community of women in horror who are writing and being supported by men and women alike. I especially think that a huge hand needs to go out to the male reviewers who really showcase women and read them and review them. They have done much more in the past couple years than some of the male author clubs that are still hanging around in the genre. And there is the Ladies of Horror Fiction site and social media pages that really help to feature women all year long. They work tirelessly for free to make sure our work and voices get out there loud and clear.
 
Women bring so much flavor, emotion, and passion to the genre. They defy norms and break boundaries and tear our hearts apart when they write. Not that some males can’t or don’t do that as well, but there is something about the empathy in the writing of some women in horror. We are an important voice not only in society but in the arts as well.
 
Q: Any tips for new women writers in the horror genre?
 
A: The guys are very friendly and good at supporting each other, and some of them in supporting women, but make sure as a woman you recommend, support, and talk to your fellow women in horror on social media. Make friends with women, reach out to them, and read their work. Trade interviews or features. But don’t only stick to your circle or clique. Work together for the good of all women in horror.
 
Don’t back down or shy away. Don’t feel like you over promote. Share your story and your writing and connect with readers. Don’t wait for readers to come to you because there is now way too many books and authors to sift through. Keep your brand, name, and books out front and center and DON’T feel bad about it. Everyone is doing it and you must push for yourself.
 
However, don’t only talk about your book and writing, be online enough you share about your life, interests, and self too. Engage with others and offer them positive support.
 
Q: Who are some of your favorite women horror authors to read?
 
A: Laura Purcell, Gwendolyn Kiste, Sara Tantlinger, Sonora Taylor, Gemma Files, Sarah Read, Kathe Koja, Helen Oyeyemi, Michelle Lane, Kristin Dearborn, Stephanie Wytovich, Christina Sng, Michelle Garza and Melissa Lason, Laurel Hightower, Catherine Cavendish, C.J. Tudor, Joyce Carol Oates, Mercedes Yardley, Caroline Kepnes, Alma Katsu, Lee Murray, and many more.
 
Of past authors I still adore: Daphne Du Maurier, Shirley Jackson, Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
 
Q: For readers who have never read your work, what should they start with and where can they find more information about you?
 
A: I think Breathe. Breathe., as my debut collection, has a bit of everything. It published three years ago with Unnerving but it’s going out of print at the end of this month (October 2020). Given that, it’s on sale now on Amazon for cheap. I hope to bring it back in another version with a new cover in the next two years. If you’d like this version, I’d definitely get it now! It covers horror, fantasy, crime, fairytale, mystery—it is dark poetry with five short stories too. It is my most personal work to date since it takes on themes of domestic violence, illness, assault, and was a huge endeavor of healing for me as well as a lot of fun to do. But it also let me use my imagination in many other ways as well and tinker in all types of horror and dark fiction.
 
Here are two blurbs it received -
 
“At times sinister, definitely dark, atmospheric and heavy with foreboding, this collection of poetry and short stories from Erin Al Mehairi touches our deepest fears. Murder, domestic violence and even an ancient Egyptian goddess all move within these pages where nothing is ever simple or straightforward.” – Catherine Cavendish, author of Wrath of the Ancients

"Breathe. Breathe. is at times haunting, visceral, bittersweet, and tender. Erin Al Mehairi bares her soul and invites readers to devour it whole."
—Hunter Shea, author of We Are Always Watching
 
To name a few more things you can read -
 
You can also go HERE on my website to read about a short story I had in a Halloween edition of a magazine last year (it’s horror, not strictly Halloween) and I’m pretty proud of that one. You’ll find a link to the magazine there.
 
And for some free reads, here is a blog post I put together on my site which features eight of my pieces you can read.
 
What’s Next?
 
I hope to have two more poetry collections and a short story collection that have mostly been completely written since 2019 out in the next years, re-publish Breathe. Breathe. in the future, and continue to write on a novel. I also am going to start plans to make my move into publishing others as an indie press. Until then, I’m working away full-time as an editor and part-time as a publicist in several genres, including horror.
 
Where to Find Me?
 
Anyone can e-mail me at hookofabook (at) hotmail (dot) com and find me easily at my website/blog. You’ll also find me on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest, - under Erin Al-Mehairi - and her Amazon or GoodReads pages.

Breathe. Breathe. Synopsis/Buy Links –
 
Breathe. Breathe. is a collection of dark poetry and short fiction exploring the surreal depths of humanity. It’s a representation of how life breaks us apart and words put us back together. Purged onto the pages, dark emotions flow, urging readers into murky seas and grim forests, to the fine line between breathing and death.

In Act One, readers are presented with a serial killer in Victorian London, a lighthouse keeper with an eerie legacy, a murderous spouse that seems to have walked right out of a mystery novel, and a treacherous Japanese lady who wants to stay immortal. The heightened fears in the twilight of your minds will seep into the blackest of your nights, where you have to breathe in rhythm to stay alive.
In Act Two, the poetry turns more internal and pierces through the wall of denial and pain, bringing visceral emotions to the surface unleashing traumas such as domestic abuse, violence, and illness.
In the short stories, you’ll meet residents of Valhalla Lane whose lives are on a violent parallel track to collision, a man who is driven mad by the sound of a woodpecker, a teenage girl who wakes up on the beach and can’t find another soul in sight, a woman caught in a time shift pitting her against the Egyptian goddess Anuket, and a little girl whose whole world changes when her favorite dandelion yellow crayon is discontinued.

Amid these pages the haunting themes of oppression, isolation, revenge, and madness unfold through folklore, nightmares, and often times, raw, impulsive passion crafted to sear from the inside out.
With a touching foreword by the Bram Stoker nominated author Brian Kirk, Breathe. Breathe. will at times unsettle you, and at times embrace you. Erin Sweet Al-Mehairi, a veteran writer and editor of the written word, offers up a mixed set of pieces, identifying her as a strong, new voice in dark fiction that will tear the heart from your chest, all the while reminding you to breathe.

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https://www.amazon.com/Breathe-Erin-Sweet-Al-Mehairi-ebook/dp/B076C3YSLC/ref=cm_cr_arp_d_product_top?ie=UTF8

​Also available via Barnes and Noble in print and at other fine online retailers.


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Women Thought Leaders in Horror: Caitlin Starling

9/27/2020

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It's been awhile my horror family but I'm a firm believer of taking very needed breaks, both mental and physical, in order to stay at an acceptable level of insanity (let's be real, is sanity really a thing?). I am extremely thrilled to introduce to you my next woman thought leader in horror, Caitlin Starling. As usual, but never the usual, buckle up!

1. Why horror? What fascinates you about horror and enticed you to write in the genre?

When I started writing The Luminous Dead, I knew it was going to involve some horror elements, and I will admit I had no idea what I was doing. But horror made sense for it – it added tension, urgency, and dread immediately, and went so well with what I'd already decided about the book (two characters, one is locked in a suit for the whole time with attendant creeping body horror, no way to tell if the other character is trustworthy but having to trust her anyway…). 

It wasn't until we sold it and actually had to think about marketing that I really understood that it wasn't a science fiction novel with horror sprinkled over it. It's a real horror novel! 

In hindsight though, it should've been obvious where I was heading. I've always written about intimacy, particularly intimacy under strain. Whether it's an existing relationship being put to the test, or new relationships forming under life-and-death circumstances, horror is a wonderful and natural tool to push and pull at those bonds and see how far they can stretch before they break (often in spectacular fashion).
 
2. What is your favorite era of horror and why?

To be one hundred percent honest, I'm incredibly new to the genre, and haven't done much of my "homework" yet – I still have so much to read and watch and discover! But I really do love the current moment we're in. We have so many different voices in the conversation, so many explorations of what horror has been, is, and can be. Do you want queer horror? Here are twenty different approaches. Black horror? South Asian horror? There's so much to choose from, and that's before you get into all the experiments, the deconstructions, the angry and joyful and powerful reclamations. It's a wonderful and very humbling time to be entering the field.
 
3. What are some of your favorite horror films? 

A Dark Song (2016) destroyed me in the best way. Get Out (2017) was, of course, devastatingly awesome. I'm also a huge fan of Behind the Mask: The Rise of Leslie Vernon (2006), and can honestly say I really enjoyed Paranormal Activity (2007), possibly because I only just watched it a few months ago.

If you're noticing a lack of 2018-2020 titles on there, that would be because I'm actually a complete weenie when it comes to movies, and I haven't had a buddy to watch with for the last while. 


4. What do you think the genre of horror brings to the world in terms of values, beliefs, impact?

Horror's such a wonderful mirror. It exaggerates and distills a lot of societal anxieties. That's a double-edged sword, of course – it can lay bare some pretty heinous views of the world that generally we keep papered over with a veneer of civility. (Looking at you, "I'm afraid of anybody who looks different from me" racism.)

I find it most interesting when it's reflecting (and is only claiming to reflect) very personal anxieties and fears. I like seeing what frightens other people. I like seeing how people imagine fighting back. 
 
5. How do you think your writing of horror reflects you as a person or your life overall?

Pretty sure you can guess at my problems with trust and intimacy from a mile away by this point. ☺ And my fears of all my skill and focus and dedication not being able to help me when things really get dark. It's very self-centered horror. Very, "Oh fuck, I actually do need other people, I can't do this on my own, and maybe now it's too late to get help."
 
6. What do you think lies ahead for the genre?

So much more variety. Things that I, personally, can't predict, but am eager to see. Reclamations of the monstrous. More psychological horror. Cooler, weirder creatures. Really nuanced, terrifying stories about how technology interfaces with our lives. Climate horror (because, when you get down to it, isn't climate change pure cosmic horror? A juggernaut that will make you suffer and die, and that is here because of our actions, but can't be fought head on, and that will not notice us as it destroys us.)
 
7. Like many things, women are underrepresented in the horror genre. Why do think this is and why is it critical to have women more represented in horror?

Respectability, I'd guess – from gatekeepers, promoters, audiences. And that goes beyond just, oh, women are so delicate, they must be shielded – I think women's horror is often extremely distressing to audiences, particularly when it's their first encounter with it. Women's horror deals so much with loss of autonomy, loss of identity, deep rage… obviously not all simultaneously, not all at the forefront of every story, but it's so often there.

And when you add queerness, when you add varying experiences of gender, and especially when you start listening to women who aren't white? It's powerful, and overwhelming in its strength, and I think a lot of people flinch and look away instead of engaging.

(You should engage. Trust me. There's so much amazing work out there.)
 
8. Any tips for new women writers in the horror genre?

Write what scares you, what pisses you off. Have fun with it. Indulge the darker sides of yourself and see what comes out. You can calibrate it for an audience later, if you want to; but when you're first drafting, follow every rabbit hole. 
 
9. Who are some of your favorite women horror authors to read?
A non-exhaustive list: Cassandra Khaw, Kate Alice Marshall, Cherie Priest, Margaret Killjoy, Camilla Bruce, Gemma Files, Nibedita Sen.
 
10. For readers who have never read your work, what should they start with and where can they find more information about you?

Start with The Luminous Dead, which is my first full-length novel. It's equal parts survival scifi horror and gothic horror piece. For the rest, you can find me at www.caitlinstarling.com, and at @see_starling on twitter.

Caitlin Starling is an award-winning writer of horror-tinged speculative fiction. Her novel The Luminous Dead won the LOHF Best Debut award, and was nominated for both a Locus and a Bram Stoker award. Her other works include Yellow Jessamine and a novella in Vampire: The Masquerade: Walk Among Us. Her nonfiction has appeared in Nightmare and Uncanny. Caitlin also works in narrative design, and has been paid to invent body parts. Find her work at www.caitlinstarling.com and follow her at @see_starling on Twitter.


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Sterp
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